Poem: 'Remembrances of Dad' part2

i watched pieces of you disappear.

first, you staggered due to a stroke...i remember walking you out of the hospital...

your one hand clutching your belt the other my arm...

like a baby you'd turn your head back to look at me as i pushed your wheelchair.

those same watery blue eyes smiling at me as you cried tears of joy-

i guess you thought i was nana...or mom.

 wordless, we'd hold hands and you'd cry each day when you saw me...

i'd cry when i left you- sobs rocking me-

'please god let him go...'

it was new year's eve. you had the flu.

i sat on your bed watching the priest sprinkle you with 'holy' water...

i held your hand...you kissed it like mommy did before she died.

i told you mom was waiting and not to be afraid. 

i said the prayers you used to like...

i still cry.